My plan was to write and post this a lot sooner, but thanks to TME and a comment I read on her blog, I just had to click the little picture to see where it led me. Don’t ask me what this couple write about because I haven’t got the faintest idea. Yes – I can read, but bang went two hours as I found myself looking at 40 extremely explicit HNT pics – and if that wasn’t enough - three videos of them in action. Hmmm. Say no more! Check it out! Oh, the bravery!
Anyway, where was I? My intention when I started this blog was to NOT write about anything too personal…to just air all my views and opinions on things, as a woman. Hence the title. But since I’ve been mercilessly sucked in and forced into getting my daily fix of all your happenings, I’ve found myself talking more about my life than I intended. Actually, I think I started to do it more in my comments for others, than on here. But after being tagged, (I really didn’t anticipate that happening,) I have this peculiar urge to tell you more about me. To open up. To show you who I am.
Which really, is a bit of a bummer.
Like I said, when I started out, I knew where I was heading. (In a perfectly safe and respectable direction.) That’s why I put my face up for everyone to see – that’s why I told my family and friends about it. But now, I’m kind of wishing I hadn’t. Being anonymous allows you to be so much more open…
Anyway, I’ve been pondering this for a while. Should I close this blog and start another one – anonymously? But then I thought about you guys, and how much I like being a part of this little corner of blogworld. I suppose I could close it down and send you all an email, hoping you’d visit and keep my secret safe. But somehow, that wouldn’t be the same.
So I’ve been soul searching.
I haven’t reached this age and place in my life without learning a few lessons. And perhaps it’s time that I stand tall and say “This is who I am. These are my views. This is my life. Get over it.”
So (I think) that’s what I’m going to do. Delve a bit deeper. I’ve been watching you all and have wanted to take part in HNT for so long, but was worried about the backlash. Perhaps I can do it in such a way to not offend? Who knows? All I know is that I really like it here, and I want to stay, and I want to be me. I have been ‘me’, but you know what I mean.
Ok, I’m burbling. I do that sometimes… I write what I think before I have time to process it in my brain.
So…onwards. My first attempt at telling you about my life….
I went to a dinner party on Saturday with my husband and a bunch of strangers.
I didn’t want to go.
I didn’t know any of them.
I got in a strop, but I went.
And then I was shown around their ‘lovely big house’ and looked at all their ‘lovely big things’ and was told how much all their ‘lovely big things cost.’ I drank from their best crystal glasses and pulled a napkin from a matching crystal napkin ring. I ate using their finest silver, and was told not to make holes in the lawn with my boots when I sneaked outside for a cigarette. On my way back in, I tripped over a bag of cement (it was dark) and I cut my knees getting blood all over my beige trousers. I asked for a plaster and a sanitary towel – the fall must have jolted something in my stomach (3 weeks post hysterectomy) and I was bleeding there too. How bloody embarrassing. But I smiled nicely and laughed when everybody else did, and played with their children and offered to help clear up. I was a good girl. I even kissed them nicely on each cheek and thanked them for a wonderful evening. Does that make me a hypocrite?
Lol – ok – I’ve finished ranting! Perhaps I should stick to what I was doing before!
i passed through similar thoughts before deciding to do my HNT and sexual blog and talk about my other life..Its more chalenging when not anonymoys..Who is TME …? can you send me their web page?
xxx
B
Lol – you naughty boy Byron. I sent an e-mail but in case you don’t look, it’s Through My Eyes…aka Pole Queen. And I think you have been there before! x
I went to TME’s blog and no videos. As for your choice, I think you should stay and let the world know you made your stand. BTW, thanks for the kind comments. I’m flattered but I’m not that good…really.
Rob
Rob – no, really, you are! As for the videos, they aren’t on TME’s blog, but the link to them was one of her comments. Anyway, here it is. Sorry to be so confusing!!
http://www.marriedinohio.com/blog/category/video/
Well, Miss Understood, the first part of your post could have come directly out of my mouth. They are the same words I would have used to tell you how I feel about being my age (47) and the nervousness and excitement that comes with revealing yourself and letting people see you, your body and your soul. Sometimes I think I may have lost my mind but I also think I needed to do something foreign to me and step out of my box.
My family does not know about my blog. I originally intended it to be something other than it is now. So I am just finding my way with it also. But this is a great place to meet nice people and have a little naughty fun without getting into to much trouble. I say go for the HNT thing….if I can try it anyone should be able too.
I love Married in Ohio. They are a great couple. I have been READING there for awhile, they hold nothing back as I’m sure you noticed.
Well, good luck trying a new direction here. If you need a supporter I am here. YAY for you, Miss Understood. I’ll be back to see the changes.
miss understood
you r cool..love u..
xxx
B
Pole Queen – Wow – what a lovely comment. Hey, if my HNT’s could be half as hot as yours I’d be a happy woman. I may be brave enough to show my big toe this week – we’ll see!
So, you’ve been READING their blog? Yeah, right, sure you have, lol. I think that’s the first black cock I’ve seen! (God, how rude of me.) I did ask Rasta for a pic but he ignored me – and I’m not counting porn videos cos they aren’t real men.
Thanks for supporting me and look forward to having you back xx
Ahhhh, Byron. What a sweetie x
Rant, do whatever you want…
isn’t that what our blogs are for??
(A very smart woman once told me that…;-))
You’re not a hypocrite; you just have good manners. Sorry about the bleeding. Hope you feel better
April – Lol. ok, ya got me! xx
Haaaaaaa – Oh, bless you. Yes, much better thanks. Purple and green knees though!
i think you should sue them for leaving the bag of cement out for you to trip on and the emotional distress of bleeding on your trousers and causing you internal damage. and then you can invite them over to your big house with crystal etc.
I’ve been having the same problem as you. I started this blog to keep things light, communicate with and make new friends, etc.
As of late, it has taken on a life of its own. There are things I sometimes want to say without fear of hurting someone, making them angry… etc.
I’ve had the same dilema.. I love HNT, but feel the need to keep them safe. I love talking, chatting, venting and just plain bitching in my own little section of blogland, but again.. don’t want to offend those people that I see and work with on a daily basis.
As for your HNT.. Go for it! It is very liberating, even when you play it a bit safe. You begin to see yourself in a new light and that’s usually a good thing!
Kisses
~Robyn
Jd – Very good point. If I sue them, I could use the money to BUY some crystal. Actually, I could do with more shoes.
Robyn – It’s difficult, isn’t it, knowing where to draw the line.
I can’t wait for your next HNT – the last one was the bravest yet! Wonder what’s up next? xx
I love JD’s idea. You should. As far as your blog goes I love this post. I am so chicken of HNT, but every week I really think about taking part. So if you do it, I will too. No rush of course. Hope your knee’s and insides feel better soon. Really think about what JD said, what a good idea, then you can have the dinner party.
Leigh – well if that’s not a challenge, I don’t know what is. My camera is sitting here looking at me…tempting me…oooh, shall I?
My idea of a dinner party is ten cases of beer and a barbecue! xx
Beer and barbeque! Your my kind of woman! My sex organ would like to converse with your sex organ but I don’t have your email. I do have some erotic stories I would like to share.
Rob
Your chair is the headquarters of your hindquarters.
Oh in that case next dinner party count me in, that is my kind of evening!!
Miss, no email listed in your profile.
It is incredible to share yourself and find that there are others out there who go through the same feelings, the same struggles and the same battles in life. Then to have hope and encouragement from their words and what they learned, it’s wonderful.
Welcome to a new era of blogging!
I like hearing about what you get up to – it’s what makes blogs like these such fun to return to. Just remember, it’s your space, do as you please with it x
Thanks Rog – It’s good to know I’m keeping somebody entertained!!! x
Miss U., I hope you will share more of your life stories with us. I’m looking forward to reading them! And I hope you don’t have any more that involve bloody knees . . .
Cherrie – More stories coming up – without a doubt. xx